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Random dumb thought about them, I have a theory that people with darkvision their eyes reflect light at night similar to a cat or other nocturnal animals, so I had a funny thought of them stumbling through that ruins early game, and Shadowheart scaring the shit out of Serena cause shes just a pair of eyes in a dark corner but she can see Serena perfectly and is completely chill lol probly a little snarky about it too this early in their relationship. It would be cute tho, to have Serena relying on her in dark places and sticking close to her side and they both tell themselves its out of need cause she cant see otherwise, but theyre also a little gay about it.
Not dumb!! 😍 I love it!
Would be very amusing to see known Sharran-slayer Tav, startling at a set of cat-like eyes glinting back at her in the darkness.
First time she turns around and sees that, she jumps a few feet in the air 😅 could definitely see Shadowheart enjoying the hell out of that.
“And what’s this? Is our dashing knight afraid of the dark?” Just dripping with that sass.
“Hardly, I simply can’t see a thing!” Indignantly, because Tav “can’t stand” her snark (read: she’s in love)
“Is that why you’re breathing down my neck, then?”
“Ah, I….sorry.”
And yet, Shadowheart doesn’t put any distance between them! And she tugs Serena’s wrist, occasionally, when she’s about to walk into a wall. And maaaaybe she uses the excuse to brush up against her a couple of times, in the tight spaces they have to pass through.
In the dark, she’s free to study Tav entirely. Every idiosyncrasy, every thoughtful glance, the way she nervously bounces her foot while she waits for the group to get moving again, the way she constantly glances at Shadowheart longingly, because she doesn’t realize Shadowheart can see her 🤭
The real trouble comes when Shadowheart “has to hold her hand” to guide her through a particularly dark little cave system leading out of a crypt. Serena’s thumb brushes her hand and it feels so nice and natural, so much so that they forget they’re still holding hands in broad daylight in front of the group 😅
Shadowheart immediately drops her hand and stalks off to “wash up” (she’s going to her tent to cry into her pillow about how she could smell Serena’s perfume and she liked it so much that Shar gave her a lil shock for the distraction)
…Tav goes back to her tent and writes in her diary about how nice it was to hold her hand 🥹
#nls series#anyway all your ideas are amazing!!!#🥰#oc: serena tavyndír#shadowheart x tav#Shadowheart#ask#noeldressari
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Thinking about DP x DC Jason Todd being a revenant again. Here's my scenario. Jason gets called that by some ghost. He's like "what the fuck is that supposed to mean?" He's heard the term before but he doesn't know any actual lore. He googles it. He scrolls past the Leonardo DiCaprio bear movie. He opens the wiki. Sees the words "animated corpse" and gets a chill diwn his spine. He starts reading the first section.
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He closes Wikipedia.
That night he has a nightmare that his family buried him, again, this time with precautions. He wakes up in his own grave, full of stones, too heavy to move, to scream.
#CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS#like reading this section in the context of jason is SO HORRIFYING#the idea of someone knowing it was possible for him to come back. to wake up down there. and wanting to keep him there#stay dead. we want you dead. you're too troublesome alive. you're meant to be down there.#so anyways. jason internalizing all this shit and feeling uncomfortable in his own body because he's thinking of it as a corpse#and of himself as haunting a place he doesn't belong#and then meeting danny and danny says 'wow you're a revenant aren't you! The dead so restless they can't bear to stay in their graves'#and he smiles. 'You're amazing. Your will is so strong'#and the Ghost King tells Jason 'You're alive but that doesn't mean you aren't one of mine. I will come for you'#and batman says 'we will keep you safe from that entity and his threats. you don't belong to him'#and jason says 'he didn't mean i was his possession. he said i was his responsibility. he said he would help me if i ever needed him'#and bruce sees the faraway look in his son's eyes and doesn't know what to say#okay I'm done#for now#dp x dc#dpxdc#revenant jason todd#danny phantom#dc#batfam#jason todd#my rambles#my writing
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HEIST FILMS + dancing 💃🕺
Happy birthday, Robin! (@madeline-kahn)
#happy birthday honey!!! 🥳🎊🎉🎂🎁🥂❤🧡💛✨#userrobin#filmedit#hustlers#sugar & spice#the thomas crown affair#the bling ring#happy new year#ocean's twelve#polite society#the bad guys#set it off#sexy beast#wingwomen#reservoir dogs#1990s#2000s#2010s#2020s#*#gif#flashing gif#it's getting harder to come up with ideas each year askfkd#it doesn't come close to any of your dancing/choreography sets#but i hope you'll appreciate the bravery it took to make a dancing set with text for you asdbkjabsfdsbag#anyway wishing you a really lovely day!! hope you have fun today! treat yourself today#you're amazing! super creative! very kind and thoughtful! smart! one of the nicest people i know! 😘#lots of love and all the best wishes ❤❤❤
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LALECHINGO!! ; a birthday event
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ it’s bingo! and also a raffle.
let’s party!! one thing about me is that is love a little event and since it’s my birthday month i felt like hosting one :3c
so: raffle time! but you gotta play some bingo first before you can participate. lemme give you a rundown on how it works.
what's the prize?
✰ a total of three 1k (or longer) fics from me! i don’t take requests so this is a rare chance to see something specific written by me ✰ the 3 winners will receive a wishlist form from me in which they can go wild ✰ haikyuu x reader only! gender of reader is for the winners to decide, i’ll write for all of them. ✰ not limited to sfw only (that being said: mdni)
details & rules (it looks like a lot, but i promise it's easy)
✰ to participate in the raffle, you gotta fill out the bingo cards! there’s ten of them in total at the end of this post. some are writing prompts, some are for reading, some to spread some kindness. you can grab and combine any that catch your interest.
✰ 1 bingo equals 1 point. if you manage to fill out an entire card, you’ll get 10 points, so 10x your name in the draw pot for the raffle. this means you can get up to 100 points in total if you fill out all ten cards completely.
✰ it’s not first come, first serve! you got two weeks to have fun with your bingo cards.
✰ this event is mostly about making fandom a little better for everyone, whether you’re a writer or a reader, no matter how you participate in it. this means you don’t have to show me proofs how you got these bingos. putting my trust in you that you won’t cheat <3
✰ since the prizes are gonna be fics by me, i would feel better knowing you actually like my works enough to follow me. however, it’s not a must to be a follower to participate. again, it’s more about fandom than me.
✰ writers picking up the writing prompts: it up to you how you use them! can be drabbles or headcanons, small fics, big fics, moodboards, not limited to haikyuu only. really whatever sparks your inspiration. you don’t even have to publish it or tag me in it (though i’d love to see ofc hehe), this is for YOU and your inspiration.
✰ do NOT bring any ai into this. i'll rip you to shreds
✰ once you’re finished, either reblog this post with your bingo cards or send me an ask with them (i won’t publish them, just for me to keep track)
✰ i’ll draw & announce the three winners on Jan 27th and will contact them through dms for their wishlist :3
card 1-6 ; for the writers
card 7 & 8 ; for the readers
card 9 & 10 ; for the kindness
that's all! have fun ♡ - Lale
#hq x reader#haikyuu x reader#-`♡´- lalechingo#← filter this one if you don't wanna see any of it on your dash. no hard feelings <3#ps: your girl's an aquarius so no early bday wishes please lmao#also i'll ramble in the tags so bear with me. this is actually my dream event so there's that#i've rotated this one in the back of my mind for a long time and i'm feeling a little shy releasing it into the wild now#but i'm being very brave about it!! (me when i lie)#you see. one thing about me is that i love giving people a little homework. but also to make it a little silly bc what else is there to do#trying to make fandom the place i want it to be. by no means i believe i can do that on my own but i can try by doing my part right?#also big kiss to ellie who came up with the name for this and is a constant source of reassurance and joy ily <33#same for the peeps in the server who let me ramble about this idea and hyped me tf up for it!#this idea also saw the light because of you all. ily all thanks for being these amazing souls that you are <3#told myself i wouldn't get sappy in the tags but oh well. hi hello gang can you hold my hand while i cry pls#anyway. let's play some fucking bingo my guys!!
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so if I host a bnha halloween digital fan zine would anyone join it??? honest question, I've been rotating the idea in my brain for d a y s
#hosting three halloween fan zines at once surely isn't a bad idea right???#i know im only on season one for my rewatch rn and i only made it to season 3 and havent seen past bakugo getting “kidnapped”#but i love all the spoilers in seeing and cant consume this content fast enough#anyways#lemme know if any of you wonderful beautiful perfectly amazing bnha fans wanna participate#bc im probably going to host the event even if my partner and i are the only ones to contribute#any ship is allowed#or just general content of your favs#or au's#or comics#fanart#fanfic#you name it#im perfectly normal about fan events#bnha#bkdk#bakugou katsuki#bakudeku#deku#izuku midoriya#tenya iida#mha#mha fanart#mha fanfiction#erasermic#erasermight#kirishima eijirou#kiribaku#denki kaminari#shouto todoroki
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progressing through the myth of sisyphus again
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#netzach#netzach lobcorp#obligatory drawings. ive had the book since my freshman year in highschool but never ended up finishing it due to how its worded and the#structure of it.. i need to be in a very specific state to be able to focus. mostly for reading in general but even more so for this#i have done parts though. never in its entirety which is a shame its a very intriguing read. hopefully i can finish it and then reread to#fully process. it is just 138 pages after all. its just so Dense... enough of book shit though. LOBCORP!!!#living hurts but the body yearns for preservation and people want to Live. to live is such a crucial want even if the self doesn't recognize#it on its own. everything in the flesh is designed to try and keep you alive. pains to eat the signals to drink the fear of hurt and pain#the automatic jerk when pain is experinced. the signals to show pain. yet living hurts. to survive hurts. so to sleep#to numb the pain to go through escapism to shut your eyes. general ideas. to see such a thing addressed and spoken about and acknowledgement#of pain and how it gets to that point was very stunning to me. it felt so real. seriously its hard to Not consider such a thing and its#rather scary? moreso when one doesnt have the words to explain or able to see such a thing experinced. it felt amazing? to see such a thing#Wanting to Die yet not to Die and to live but living hurt so much and so to get by and for the pain to Stop one does anything to soothe it#suffering is tiring. suffering hurts. its empty yet its excruciating. the want for it to stop and to not be there and experince it anymore#be it through various means or to the extreme to force it so that Nothing Else could ever happen to you. even pain. ahh nuts not quite just#lobcorp its just ramblings in general somewhat related since i didnt reread the exact dialog lately.#anyway skethcy drawings yay... i am fine currently its not super bad as it was earlier just a fatal flaw of thinking a lot (rip)
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Congratulations you made it to the wedding between me and Kaufmo (aka my 100 day anniversary officially simping for Kaufmo)
Happy July 1st (art fight is haunting me) (side note I ramble in the tags)
To start of let’s watch several silly CapCut edit before getting into the wedding art
⚠️❗️WARNING FOR LOUD SCREAMING/SOUNDS❗️⚠️
Thank again @leafryoworks for the offer of letting me use one of their Kaufmo art for an edit
Original art post by leafy link here
Now that the edit are over you can have a silly terrible Terrible doodle as well. (I can’t bring Kaufmo amazing ness justice with my art but I try. Also I had no idea what to do for poses help)
Didn’t put Kaufmo in a black and white tuxedo because the color are apart of his charm(I was lazy)
We had to change wedding officiant to ( @saytrrose/) kenji rose because kinger couldn’t take Jax and gangle interrupting anymore. (They called dibs after all)
And of course can’t forget to our friends leafy. It’s like I can still hear them now.
(they just have school this week so they couldn’t see the post until this Weekend) imagine having school you nerd/ /silly /joke
Oh and also
Kaufmo gallery update: 520
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Thank for viewing my silly wedding post about Kaufmo. I will continue to simp for a clown like a loser.
And remember everyone
Live laugh Kaufmo <3
– Sincerely Kaufmo simp 
#MintySillyArt#MintySweetArt#kaufmo bootleg plush has no hair at all under that hat lol#I would like to thank my mutual and everyone else for coming to this wedding#once again drawing full body art even though I’m terriblest drawing poses#I don’t know if I should tell twitter about this Kaufmo simping business because I fear them#if I tell twitter they will probably hunt me like a pack of wolves#live laugh Kaufmo <3#even if he bald lol#I still feel bad using there art for such a silly edit#tadc#tadc kaufmo#the amazing digital circus kaufmo#Kaufmo#the amazing digital circus#I did a bit of height comparison for Kaufmo and rose based of some chart online that had Kaufmo and kinger#I used a kinger drawing you had with your (irl?) sona to with the chart from online. I’m like 5’3 all yall are taller then me.#anyways all my guest have fun at this total real wedding post#no idea what to do for the outfit so I just basically re colored it#the plushy#oc x canon#self insert x canon#side note again all of this art apparently took 17 hours?!??
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I am not okay. Just finished ep 36 of malevpod and. I. Aaaaa. Oscar our sweet little baby boy murderer just needs to be alright and the conversation and John and. John you manipulative bastard I knew what you were doing when you were trying to convince Arthur not to tell Oscar about this you don't actually care about Oscar now do you you just want Arthur to yourself and. oscar. Oscar you let the man live that is so aa and yet good on you for being sane I guess(?) still agree that abusive priestman whos name I don't care to remember should've died. And. Arthur. Aaaaaaa oh arthur. Arthur. Why. Why. That last line of the episode. Why did you say that. Why did you make me scream so. So much. Aa. Why are you not okay like i know why logically but how do you make things so aaaaaaaaaa. And telling oscar to help others and that you're giving a reaosn and stuff im not okay I related to them way too m uch for my liking and wby was that last line so emotionally devistating why arthur are you so goddamn poetic I'm going to kill you not actually because I love you and hate you and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa "I'm glad Parker didn't feel the same way." IM NOT OKAY ABOUT THIS LINE!!!!!!!!!!!
#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#why. why has my brain chosen to just not. aa.#I'm not okay about this fandom.#I love/hate them all so much#other than oscar#my boy did nothing wrong#but arthur. you're losing your humanity. and johns getting it. and that's a weird exchange yknow?#and john you manipulative bastard prick#you were trying to convince arthur not to rely on oscar why? because you're jealous aren't you?#anyways i'm not okay about this fandom one bit.#the idea that parker was the only thing keeping arthur together was. is. no. aa. it's such an emotionally filled thought it hurts.#parker we never heard your voice or learned your face but we as a fandom love you so much.#and the line about bedrock. i cant. i just cant.#anyways. yes. amazing. i'm not emotionally stable. well done. they totally arent going to die tragically <-lying to myself#this episode has given me so many emotions i was actively screaming / yelling / going 'aaaaa' in a monotonous fashion.#with all that said.#malevolent#arthur lester malevolent#john doe malevolent#john malevolent#arthur malevolent#malevolent arthur#malevolent john#malevolent pod#malevolent podcast#oscar malevolent#arthur lester
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me when my mutuals are THE best writers in the whole wide world
#i lose my mind every time#i know i say that a lot but the thing is .#i really do mean it every time i say it#you're all so fucking amazing it blows my mind#i'm genuinely so happy to be able to read your works#it's wild#to be here with you and to witness these amazing pieces#you're incredible#and i love you#LIKE THE IDEAS YOU GUYS COME UP WITHHH!“?!?=”=?!?!??!?!#ALL OF THE FICS AND THE DRABBLES AND THE BLURBS#HELL I SEE DEVASTATING FUCKING ONE-LINERS HERE ALL THE TIME#IT'S SO FUCKING COOOOLLLLLLLLLLLL#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#YOUR MINDSSSSSSSSSSS#yeah no i fucking love it here#to be surrounded with the most creative people#the most amazing people#it's something i am truly thankful for#sorry for putting all of this in the tags actually lmao i didn't know i was gonna babble on smhhh#anyway i love you#and i love your writing#soooooooo so much#so much#mayor of loserville
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Grima and Final Blows
The other day I mentioned that I had an essay about Grima to write that I'd been putting off, and between that and all the great essays my fellow Grimleal scholars have been putting out recently, I decided to sit down and finally get it done.
So here you go. An analysis of Grima's difficulties with directly killing people.
Okay, so I’ve been thinking about this for quite some time, because one of my favorite things to explore when it comes to Grima is the gap between their villain act, which they actively play up in front of others in both Awakening and FEH, and their true feelings, which are hinted at in Awakening (particularly through the Future Past DLC) and made even clearer in FEH— their own evil actions are repulsive to them, and they wish they could live normally among humans, but they don’t believe they have any choice but to be the monster that “the fell dragon, Grima” is supposed to be. They are committed to this “fell dragon” character, to putting on a show for everyone, and they are so good at it that it’s easy to overlook that they… uh… aren’t very good at killing anyone important. Not directly, anyway.
Sure, Grima is responsible for numerous deaths. But what is their actual kill count? Well, in Awakening’s main game… zero. (Unless you count Chrom, but, as we witness, that was not a voluntary act on their part; Validar took control of their body. You could also make the argument that Grima “claiming the sacrifice” at the Dragon’s Table counts, but the problem with that is, although it’s obvious that Grima accepts the life force of the Grimleal members as a sacrifice, it’s not at all clear whether or not Grima personally kills them. Although it’s possible that they did off screen, it’s also possible that Validar killed them, or that they were ordered to take their own lives; there’s no reason Grima would have had to lay a hand on them.) In the Future Past, it’s… one, maybe one and half (Naga’s spirit, and Tiki, but only in body. More on this later.)
And it’s not as though Fire Emblem shies away from showing villains directly murdering people, Even in Awakening itself, the intro to Chapter 9 shows Aversa killing a Plegian soldier for delivering an unsatisfactory report, so it wouldn’t have been out of place to let Grima stab a few NPCs as a show of brutality. Especially seeing as Grima is the evil dragon final boss. As early as Mystery of the Emblem, we can see Medeus killing his cleric hostages to restore his own health if you fail to rescue them before trying to defeat him, and as recently as Engage, we get a whole cutscene of Sombron eating Hyacinth. Fantasy violence my beloved <3
Anyway, the point is, Grima could have been written to be much more violent and I don’t think anyone would have complained. Instead, though, Grima repeatedly— and consistently across the series— tries to avoid engaging in direct combat.
Let’s start with what Grima does in the main game of Awakening. We know that Risen pursue Lucina into the past, because we see them fall out of the portal with her in Chapter 1. We also know that those Risen, as well as the others that are appearing throughout the land, are not being directly controlled by Grima, because later in Chapter 13, as the Shepherds are leaving Plegia after meeting with Validar, Aversa, and the Hierophant, they are pursued by more skilled Risen, and Frederick notes that “Either they are learning our ways, or someone is commanding them…” So… It seems that sending the Risen—with or without specific orders—to attack while Grima is not themself present is a favored tactic.
But what about when Grima is present? Take a look at the Endgame: Grima chapter. Yes, you eventually get to engage Grima in direct combat. But not immediately. What Grima does first is…
Grima attacks the Shepherds with dark spikes from a distance, reducing everyone’s hp to 1. Now, here’s what happens next: Grima attempts to possess their past self, Robin hears the voices of their friends and breaks free, Naga heals everyone back to full health, and then the fight against Grima begins… Except actually, the Shepherds have to get to Grima first, because they’re at the top of the map and they’re not budging. Naga warns them that “Grima’s servants will beset [them] to no end.” and she’s not kidding. Grimleal reinforcements will spawn infinitely, and they can hit pretty hard. Even with everyone starting at full health, it’s possible to lose units to these Grimleal soldiers if Grima isn’t defeated quickly. Can you imagine what would happen if Naga hadn’t healed the Shepherds first?
Well, I’d guess that they’d probably all die to the Grimleal without Grima having to face them up close. Which was probably what Grima was going for.
This isn’t the only time Grima tries the dark spikes trick, either. Grima attempts this exact same move in the Future Past 3 when they face Lucina, Severa, Laurent, and Gerome.
Grima announces “With the next blow, I will kill you.” and then demands that they hand over the Fire Emblem as well as the gemstone they hold. The threat is very real. But…
Given that at 1hp, a gust of wind could take the kids out, would it not have been easier and faster to kill them and just loot their bodies immediately? And yet Grima lets the kids have an extended discussion about sacrifice, and even suggests that Lucina would indeed buy a little more time by running… Again, I cannot stress enough that Grima should be able to finish them off in one hit at this point.
So the plan was almost certainly to back off and let the Risen do the actual killing, even though that would be a lot less efficient under the circumstances. And when Chrom and the Shepherds arrive, Grima immediately turns their attention to them, saying “If it’s a reunion you seek, my soldiers shall welcome you on my behalf.” Then they once again pick a spot at the back of the map and refuse to move from it, forcing the Shepherds to fight through the Risen in order to engage Grima in combat at all.
And sure, Grima has some excuses. “I was hoping not to have to flex any muscle,” they say right before the dark spikes attack, as if to justify why they didn’t do it sooner. And of course they taunt Lucina over having to choose to whether to run as her friends sacrifice themselves for her or to stay and fight and die with them. “I must say I shall enjoy this either way!” Yes, Grima, we get it, you’ve made it very clear that you’re an arrogant asshole.
But is arrogance really all there is to it? If we look at what Tiki tells Grima in the good ending of the Future Past, it looks as though Grima’s arrogance has brought their own downfall. “If you had left Mount Prism alone, Grima, you might have stood a chance. Instead, you have brought the Awakening right to your feet.” However, when you think about it… Is Tiki’s continued existence not in itself a result of Grima’s repeated pattern of not really wanting to land a finishing blow? The game states that Grima did in fact kill Tiki… but only in body, not in spirit. This is, according to Tiki, because Robin intervened.
Now, the question I have is… Is it really possible that Robin could have intervened both against Grima’s will and without them having any idea? Honestly, it’s hard to tell exactly how aware Grima is of Robin’s resistance, because they lie about it a lot, e.g. stating that Robin’s spirit perished in sending Chrom back to his own world, even though just moments later, Robin is once again overpowering them. So, keeping in mind that Grima is a liar, was Grima really arrogant to leave Tiki’s body in Ylisstol, and to not make sure that her spirit was fully destroyed? Or was Robin simply able to capitalize on Grima’s propensity towards backing off?
Because surely the only way Grima could be unaware that Robin had acted against them is if Robin hadn’t actually acted against them. I don’t think I believe that Grima really wanted Tiki gone. Naga, sure—longtime nemesis and all. But if Grima had truly cared about seeing Tiki’s existence destroyed… Well, I doubt Robin could have interfered that much.
But maybe it could still be a matter of arrogance. Maybe Grima just didn’t think Tiki’s spirit could do anything with Naga’s spirit gone, and thus didn't care to pay attention to her anymore once she seemed dead enough.
If that’s true, it doesn’t explain why Shadows of Valentia Grima exhibits the exact same habits when fighting Alm and Celica, despite never having been outside of the Thabes Labyrinth at this point in their life. As opposed to the various Terrors throughout the rest of the Labyrinth, which chase Alm (or Celica) down in the overworld to force a fight, Grima is immobile in their room, and will wait patiently there indefinitely until the player chooses to engage. You can even evacuate from the dungeon.
But if you do choose to fight Grima, it proceeds much like the battles against them in Awakening go. The main difference is that they actually will move from their starting position this time, if you position someone in their range. That still requires a fight against (proto-)Risen who are spawning in from the sides to stop your party’s advance.
So… Now it’s starting to look like Grima actively prefers this one particular trick… And it’s a fundamentally defensive maneuver, which makes perfect sense from SoV Grima’s standpoint (they were attacked out of nowhere, after all), but is not really an obvious standout strategy for Awakening Grima, whose taunts and threats suggest an aggression that would be better supported with a more offensive strategy… Consider, too, that Awakening Grima is in fact being even more defensive than their SoV iteration, since they don’t move towards you at all.
With all that in mind, it really, really looks like Grima doesn’t want to fight, especially in Awakening. Not that they don’t intend for the Shepherds to die—on the contrary, they’ve set everything up so that the Shepherds will eventually be overwhelmed—but that they don’t want to land the killing blow.
(And gee, I wonder what might be fueling their reluctance? Being controlled and made to kill your best friend by your own hand wouldn't be totally traumatic or anything, right?)
And then... Funny thing here, I’ve been procrastinating writing this essay for a long time. I originally started thinking about it shortly before the Depths of Despair banner was released in FEH, so imagine my surprise when I saw this characterization hold up in the writing of Fell Exalt Chrom’s Forging Bonds as well… The Grima there says that Chrom was the one to kill the rest of the Shepherds. Now, it’s pretty clear that it was through Grima controlling him, but that’s not the point. The point is that once again, Grima didn't have to do any direct killing.
Look, if it had only ever happened once, I could buy that maybe Grima was just underestimating their opponents, that maybe they thought they could get away without having to put very much work in. But for Grima to operate this way so many times, so consistently, and to their own detriment? No...
Grima doesn’t like direct combat. Grima has trouble even when it’s a fight they asked for.
And when you think about it, that makes their reaction to Robin choosing to land the final blow themself in the sacrifice ending all the more understandable.
“…YOU WOULD… NOT DARE!”
Because Grima would not dare. Grima has always preferred to let someone else land the final blow.
#grima#fire emblem awakening#fe13#grima studies#honestly realizing that main game grima doesn't kill anyone kind of shook me#future past grima only has naga and tiki... neither of which we get to see on screen so tbh grima might have weaseled out of them too#expiration has 5 range after all. naga could have just taken some dragon breath to the face from afar. we truly have no idea what grima did#to my knowledge the only time we see grima actually try to KILL kill (not dark spikes 1hp em) is... rearmed grima in the forging bonds stor#not her specific forging bonds but the general overarching one for that banner#which i have major problems with for other reasons anyway#and which might be retconned by feh itself bc thrasir said arcane weapons should be avoided at all costs yet... so many rearmed heroes now#so i don't feel too bad ignoring that one#but yeah like... writing this essay made me feel for grima even more#um... you know that one quote that the robin who's part of the day of devotion duo with chrom has...#“Having someone to express your love to is an amazing thing. There IS more to life than constant battle!”#yeah. i think about that quote and i think about grima's defensive fighting style and i. feel things.#to exist always on the defensive...#such an exhausting life they lead
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I'm really sorry you and your sister are dealing with that
(no pressure to publish this, not that there should ever be pressure to publish an ask if you don't want to, of course, but just wanted to say I hope you're doing okay)
Ah, thank you, anon, it's okay. It's been a while now (court moves slooow), but we're getting hopefully close to the end. She filed in Family Court December 2022, and we've had about five interim hearings with final trial (finally) scheduled over four days next month, so fingers crossed! But yeah, it's been A Time. He's financially and emotionally abusive against my sister, and both those things as well as medically negligent against their children (who are only six and eight and both have special needs), so it's been....rough. To say the least.
But on a lighter note, have one of my new favourite photos I took of my nephews at the jellyfish enclosure at the aquarium last month!
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#i DO feel like i have an honourary family law degree at this point haha#and i think i've got at least three different creative projects that are coming out of it because the levels of insight#you develop#is just#yes#wow#A Lot#i hhaaaated the idea when i was younger that you became a better writer as you get older#like i think i genuinely did have this mindset like age has nothing to do with talent#and i kind of do still think that#i think there are young writers who are wildly good#but it's also impossible to articulate the absolute wilderness that is humanity that you get deeper into as you age#that makes me sound a hundred lmao i'm 33#but i think in particular there's this pivot point when the people you love start to have families of their own with people who are#so removed from your way of being#and sometimes that's amazing and sometimes that's awful#and what comes out in the wash of that is just a perfect mix of generational trauma AND generational enabling#privilege and expectation and mindsets around familial roles#and the sudden and horrible reveal that you have had children with a man who will be diagnosed a destructive narcissist#and who will reject the idea of your children having disabilities because how could he - a perfect man - father children with disabilities#and will turn all that loathing onto a woman he once said he loved because he decides she is the defective one who gave him broken children#which is literally how he thinks#it's soooo#yeah#anyway my sister is amazing and my nephews are perfect#and honestly it's been special in a lot of ways because y'know i'm a middle child she's my big sister#and we've had a tumultuous relationship over the years but this has honestly made us closer than we've ever been in our lives#and i'm proud of that but i'm really proud of the relationship i have with those little boys#and i think need hope we're going to win and she'll be able to move herself and the boys here even as the odds are stacked against us SO#i WILL also be calling on the universe / heavens / everyone's good vibes next month
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bad astrology by flower face
#yellowjackets#jackieshauna#ITS DONE OMG ITS FINISHED#what do I do now. with my life (ranking)#also ive decided i am gonna do literary analysis. on all of em#literally i have NO idea if anyone cares. well. i do bc I care and tbh that's enough to me#<- guys look im living so healthy#anyways this was a blast#hope somebody has at least discovered flower face trhu me bc its one of my fav artists#mitos incredible life#mine art tag#also im sorry the like long scenes 3 and 4 arent on beat :/ i love that song but it has so long instrumental stuff and idk what to do there#ALSO!! i had it all planned out like at least half in my docs (like always)#and then in the middle i was like 'omg what if I only show jackie-after-the-argument and shauna-after-jackies-dead'#(excluding the argument and the flashbacks (they used to hear us thru the floor))#which was. restricting. very much#also meaning was changed (originally wanted jackie to have the line 'idc if ure not made for me' but the only scene i could think of was th#ure hungry for and that was the next scene already so.)#anyways this was originally gonna be lottienat before i started with The Shark In Your Water#bc I thiught it fit them SO well. (still do) but now I like have to get away from the jackieshauna thought and then ill do the lottienat#probably#omg also I want everyone (who has read this far. whoever would do that) to know i was running on like 25 screen#recordings and 3 jackieshauna scene packs form yt#that's why. I dknt have that many clips alright im not using like 10 scenes over n over on purpose#gotta go but im gonna make a wrap post thingy once im back slay#no actually I get like average 7 notes (<- that's a lie Idk bc I didnt count) but im proud of myself this is amazing#ive wanted to do smth similiar alr#but it was some album by alec benjamin and a different thing for every song (like a poem‚ a painting or a play)#but I lost motivation this is the first thing that i actually pulled though all the way I think#jackieshauna: The Shark In Your Water
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#tw vent#ew yucky vent lmaoo#Love waking up in the morning to my dad#drunk#being accused of things making cry 5 times and hyperventilating when he hells at me for#crying#and saying should be grateful I have a dad#also love how he admitted to me he was shit#i defended him#he told me to stop and he could tell i was lying and that i hate him ( i dont) then later hes said the same thing#(didnt defend him that time) and he got super mad at me for not defending him and called me a bad daughter#he told me he could change if he wanted to but he doesn’t think there's anything to change#he's literally such a narcissistic it's insane#that day was wild#cried 6 times had a panic attack and relapsed after month crazy ass day#what do you mean you could've took me away to Albania without my mother and raised me like a Hitler but you didn’t because you're a good da#he was fine the next day though so idek i feel like i can't complain i feel like such a baby#he's like all you need to raise kids with is love i don't do anything for you guys (me and my brother) i don't know anything about you guys#but i loved you and look how you turned out! (my mother's doing love her shes the best) but also like saying u love me and then yelling at#me and mot caring about my life or putting in effort for me has given me a fucked up idea of what love is#and i also have no idea how to differentiate a good person and a bad person#so thats great lmaoo#i have hope though my mom is amazing a he's not that bad tbh he's gonna give me a really messed up view of trust ik cause i already have it#but it's okay lol I'll fix it all and it'll all be fine I'm still young and optimistic#forgot this also not to shit talk but why are you threatening your daughter if she breaks up you and your girlfriend?? when shes hasn't#done anything to indicate that she wants that in any way? why is it my job to save the relationship you messed up 💀#anyway bye lol peace :3
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Ride 719: The start of the Inter High qualifiers!!
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Pag 5
1: Sorry for the wait, in fifteen minutes, at 10 o' clock, the qualifiers for the Inter High of the prefecture of Chiba, here at the gate before the beach of Kamogawa
2: will start!!
They're here!!
4: Yeah.... sorry, sorry
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Pag 6
1: A ra-ra-race, so suddenly!? And what's more, the important qualifiers
Ah- ah- uhm, ah the helmet, the helmet, where is it, teh
Come on, come on, calm down- you're holding it in your left hand
2: I just heard the announcer saying “start”, Kinaka-kun
They're starting, seriously!?
Calm down, it's in fifteen minutes; now it's the tine to line up at the starting line
Let's go, Rokudai
That's why....
3: Sorry for the wait....
4: You seem to be in a hurry, so I brought these, here!!
5: Ka-Ka- Kanzaki-senpai!!
Aj- ah-yes!
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Pag 7
1: Thank you so much!! -teh!!
To- to- today we'll work hard until the end of our strengths, thank you so much!!
Yeah... you're so impressive, first years
And.... so nervous
2: Ah- ah-
Ah-
She's my senpai as a “manager”.....
3: You said.... “brought”?
5: The jersey with your number bibs
Waa, waaa, thank you so much, teh
Waaaa
By the way, numbers bibs are are something that's meant to be put on by yourself!!
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Pag 8
1: Th- thank you
Hurry, put it.... uhm....
3: Wear them, and run
5: They're the jerseys of the Sohoku's members
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Pag 10
1: Hurry up, there's no time
I underestand that nervousness very well, too!!
2: Of course you're nervous, you're running in the qualifiers with the same jersey as them
3: The jersey I.... longed for....
My obejctive.....
4: I can wear it? Me!! Now!!
5: Excuse me!!
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Pag 11
1: This.... I'll wear this, and.....
2: run together with Back-gate-slope-senpai....!!
3: I feel so honred.... and I might feel inadequate, but
4: I'll run in the race!!
5: Now, zip it up!!
The magic of that jersey is that it makes you nervous but it also gives you strength!!
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Pag 12
1: They're here!!
3: It's Sohoku!!
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Pag 13
1: Waaaaa!
It's last year's champions!
The two-times champions!!
They're here, Sohoku!!
Last year's winners, Sohoku High School, arrived at the start line!!
Amazing!
They're not just Chiba's two-times champions, they're national champions!
Incredible!
Sohoku! Sohoku!
Nice!!
2: Kakaka, they got all excited as soon as we get here!!
Thanks a lot, I'm Naruko Shoukichi!!
Naruko!
Redhead!!
3: Thanks a lot, I'll do great today, too!!
Look forward to my flashy running!
That redhead guy is fun!
4: I'm excited
Onodaa!!
Onoda-kun is so cute!!
5: Kashiwahigashi- well, do your best!
Makuhari- don't give up!
Don't just assume we're gonna lose!!
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Pag 14
1: We have to breakthrough this race
Yeah
2: Sohokuuu!!
Win!
I mean, of course they'll take the top goal....
Honestly, aren't they unmatched?
Yeah
3:If we lose here, there'll be no Inter High
Winning for sure, no, we never know what's going to happen, that's road racing
4: Yes
Three years ago....
5: Sometimes I remember that day....
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Pag 15
1: The qualifiers in Anesaki with Kinjou-san and the other third years
2: The first years are here
3: Finally in third place, Sohoku!!
What did the old man say in the end?
That.... they'll take the finish line, with a difference of one minute....
Can they really do something like that?
4: Catching up.... and even creating a difference of one minute..
Can they really do that?
If they really can....
5: It's overwhelming
6: Sohoku is the top!!
Sohokuu!!
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2: Back then, we were first years, and they were so strong and overwhelming that we could only think that our senpais were incredible
3: But I get it now
5: To open such an overwhelming gap
6: They worked so hard to prepare for that
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Pag 17
3: That's right!!
4: We spent so much time practicing and thinking about what could happen and preparing for it!!
5: And we also prepared so hard for this
6: Yeah!!
's right!!
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Pag 18
1: Let's run with everything we have!!
2: Uh!!
Sohoku's presure got stronger!!
Waa
No, don't run with everything you have!!
3: Let's go!!
4: Yeah!!
Yeah!!
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Pag 19
1: This road leads to the Inter High!!
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Pag 20
1: The Kamogawa qualifiers for the road racing Inter High
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Pag 21
1: Start!!
2: Under the clear blue sky, the ciclysts are all dashing on
There's also a lot of people cheering for our local high school in Kamogawa!!
Kamo..!!
Do your best!!
3: Kashiwahigashi, take it this year!!
Yeah, got it!!
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Pag 22
2: Do your beest!
Thaaanks a lot!
There are so many bikes!
So colorful
3: Now, is the parade section over?
Sohoku's Naruko?
4: 'lright
5: Should we go now!!
6: Waaa Naruko jumped ahead at the start!
Sohoku's Naruko!! Isn't that bad news!?
Waaaaa
7: Hahaha, it's alright!!
Huh!?
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Pag 23
1: “In road racing, you can't win alone”!! That's the theory!!
We have the numerical advantage! If he's left alone, he'll eventually get exhausted and fall!!
Kashiwahigashi Nomura-san!!
2: I'll show you
3: This is Naruko Shoukichi's flashi riding!!
Like this
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Pag 24
1: I'll reach the goal!!
I'll away with the first attack and then win, and make a legend!!
2: No no no, Naruko is definitely bad news!
He'll get away and win on his own, that guy!
Catch him!
Chase him!!
4: Thanks to Naruko-kun, the first half will be easy
Yeah
While Naruko-kun is in the lead, we'll be protected from the wind
6: By the way
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Pag 25
1: Kinaka and Rokudai.... until the last moment, they weren't at the start line with us
Ye-yeah
2: I- I'm sure they ran late while getting ready.... and are now hesitant to cut through everyone to come to the front
I guess they're starting from way behind us
3: I don't see them at all
4: Do we leave them behind?
You're so quick to make a decision!!
5: They were too flustered, chosing them was a mistake
Your humor is too dry, Imaizumi-kun!
6: Let's wait for them
We can't do that
Ehhh
7: No, seriously speaking
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Pag 26
1: If they can't get here by themselves, then we don't need them
2: This race
3: also serves as the team members selection
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Pag 27
3: I.... in the end we ended up at the very end of the line, teh
4: Is Imaizumi-san in the lead?
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Pag 28
1: And there are so many people, the density is so different from that of middle school's races!!
Ngh!! I can't get used to this way of riding!!
2: I'm sorry, it's because I took too much time in getting ready, teh
And now you, Kinaka-kun-
3: Whataver, there's no use in talking about it now
Anyway, let's go up to where Onoda-san and the other are!!
4: If we can't get to them
5: Our race ends now!!
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#yowamushi pedal#yowamushi pedal manga#yowamushi pedal translations#yowamushi pedal spoilers#yowapeda#yowapeda manga#ride 719#15 YEARS OF YOWAPEDAAAAAAAA#can you believe it???? im feeling so proud for no reason lmao#and we got so many color pages!!! i love watanabe's coloring style so muuuuch#anyway! such an amazing chapter!!!#have you seen my boy Onoda being all captain-like with his speech??? hes grown up so much and im so so proud of him!!#seeing the three of them in this race and thinking about the first year when they were in the audience watching.....#theyre my sons and im a proud proud mum#if you ever think im not emotional about yowapeda think again#but also on another note Imaizumi iand onoda were su fun lmao#'do we leave them behind' sasdsfdfsdfsd imaizumiiiiiii onoda is right and your humor is dry lmao#also also i love how onoda is captain but it looks like imaizumi helps him so much with the organization#looks like it was his idea both to include the 1st years in this race and also to make it the selection too#loved how he had to remind onoda 'no onoda this is the selection we cant help them' l#and anothee thing#'we talked so much about what could happen during the race and prepared so much'#and yet they didnt think about including roku-chan and kinaka in the conversation! why didnt they prepare them too i dont get it lmao#they could have avoided all this rocus but alas they decided to trust kaburagi (big mistake)#btw i need to say it again- roku-chan and kinaka!!! I'M SO FOND OF THEM MY CHILDREN#theyre so adorable ;A; and their relationship is a+++#not what i expected at all when they were introduced but I LOVE IT#cant wait to see more of them#my pure adorable babies#little balls of nerves running in their first race :')
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GRE today…..
#456 words#it’s optional for most things I’m applying to but. my grades are not amazing for the level I’m applying#so in my case taking the gre is a good idea if I can do really well#which#¯\_(ツ)_/¯#we will see#I did a practice test and sone practice problems and such and I do fine#but I would like a higher percentile in quantitative than my practices have projected#hopefully having practiced and being in a proper test environment will help push it up a few more points#also it’s like. 50/50 rn on whether I can finish the essay in 30 mins#ive gotten it closer each time I practice but#woof. hard to cleanly articulate a point you don’t know ahead of time in 30 mins#but yeah ideally I do well enough that I can send scores and they will help rather than harm#that’s all I ask. I could maybe take it again but would rather not have to spend another 250#we shall see#at least it’s not the time I took the mcat w only 2 weeks prep#and its also not the mcat#mcat has No fucking reason to be that long#that’s not a cognitive test or a content test it is an endurance test#I know gre used to be longer (like 4 hours?????) but. still#mcat was like 7 iirc#GRE is 2 hours which is a normal fucking amount of time for a test methinks#though ngl it’s a bitch that the hardest sections are at the end#well I guess that’s. a good sign actually????#bc iirc it modulates what you get on the last two sections based on your earlier performance#so the fact it gets harder means I’m doing well early on#but still………..#anyway I’m rambling#pre test thoughts I guess#don’t expect anyone to read this really and if you did sorry this is. probably entirely uninteresting
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real talk in the tags for a second because i have a crush on a girl and i. a hehe. ahehehe.
will be burying this in reblogs and never touching on it again
#so random disclaimer this girl is like a year older than me and in high school it’s like a nono for older and younger batch to like be#a thing so i know i generally have no chance but i like to live in my own insanity and the progression of my crush on her has been absolute#ly cuckoo bananas. so like it started out as ‘i wanna be your friend’ and progressed into ‘shit they’re really pretty’ to ‘wow ur so??’ to#‘fuck i like them’ and then it died down and then by all golly it came back but more of a hallway crush now which is bearable bc i’m#not really a part of their life?? like we know each other but we don’t wave and shit and we don’t like ever interact that much so i was lik#ok this is fine bc they literally never think of me so i’m just admiring from afar. and the FIRST inciting incident was i request them onig#and i expect to not get accepted because according to their friends they onyl accept close friends and i’m like k this is a bad idea probs#but the worst that could happen is i get left in their follow requests right?? RIGHT?? but then within like two hours of reqing. lord.#i got. ACCEPTED. and they requested back. and suddenly it’s +1 tangibility like ok?? maybe we’re not as strangers as i thought we were#i later discovered i was not that special for this but also?? cool?? anyways for a while it kind of laid dead and we never spoke at all eve#tho i was in their acc now (at this time they barely posted but whenever they did it was so?? funny like they would slap the randomest shit#on that acc) and it was still a hallway crush altho my friends r awful (/pos) people who would always make me pass their hallway and i#would run into them so often but at this point we only ever like exchanged glances and they would walk right past me like i wasnt even ther#but THEN the second incident happened which was basically we had to play instruments for this christmas event thing and bc they’re literall#y amazing they played for it and i was roped into it and. i was so gay the whole time. bc who wears a leather jacket to school and gets the#prettiest haircut ever right on the last day before a long break?? and the worst part is whenevr something confusing happened they would#turn to me and this one other person and we’d b laughing together. like we r friends. and they’re so fucking nice they were checking up on#us the whole time i was literally dying i kept dropping my pick and stealing looks AURURUGH and they’re so gen funny and interesting i just#and the first few days of holiday break i just couldn’t stop thinking abt them it was so bad? like that was the moment where i was genuinel#like is this more than a hallway crush… eventually it died back down until the next event we had to play together where they were being SO#SO much more comf w me? like exchanging knowing looks when smt funny happens and that stuff.. at this point i didnt even know what to like#think of my crush on them so i just let it be yk. atp they’re not even waving at me in the hallways at all still so maybe they’re just bein#nice! BUT NO. THAT IS UNTIL I AUDITIONED FOR A BAND (theyr in charge of accepting) AND THEY ACCEPTED ME WHICH COOL BUT LIKE A DAY LATER I#HEARD FROM OUR MUTUAL FRIEND THAT THEY SAID ‘yeaa im so happy i got (my name)’ AS IN IN THE BAND. LIKE. HELLO?? HI U THIUGHT ABT ME?? and#during the first band mtg where everyone’s all awk they kept making eye contact w me and asking if i was good and making sure i got to say#smt before anyone made a decision and it. murdered. me. i’m sorry maybe it’s the fanfic writer in me or this shit is literally nothing and#think they’re just nice to everyone but who cares bc it means they’re nice to ME too. and then last week happened. which was like the nail#in the coffin. INTERACTION ACTIVITY. I IMPULSIVELY ASK IF THEY WANNA B GROUPMATES AND THEY SAY YES. THEY ONLY TALK TO ME AND THEIR FRIENDS.#I ACT STUPID. THEY ALUGH AND TOUCH MY SHOULDER. I ASK ABT THEIR CAMERA AND THEY GO ON A LONG-ISH (cute) RANT ABT SMTH. THEY ASK WHY I HAVE#BIG ASS STACK OF POST ITS. WE TALK. THEY LAUGH AT MY JOKES. SUDDENLY. THEY SAY A FULL HELLO IN THE HALLS. THEY WAVE AT ME A DAY LATER. FUCK
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